Hard to Swallow
A Poem dependent upon 15 songs
Runtime: 59min
I’ve to remind myself
how I feel has nothing to do
with what I can see now
for what I see does not function
to produce such un peace
yet here it arises as if
I were heroin-deficient
my mind chiming
you make me feel
you make me feel
and how I hate to hear that lonesome
whistle blow
knowing it’s our time to
go 100, 500, 900 miles
from wisdom, further away as
uncontrolled desire blooms,
wounds, pierces all the wrong places,
births desperation, debases
a toxin edged along the blade
a goddamn shame
slit wrists, caught in the undertow
cold as sorrow I can’t breathe
I’ll drown you with me
steeped attachment deep
& tormented held tightly
to my weak mind
I’m not alright
I wished it wouldn’t happen
but here the karma ripened
and I found it hard
didya think it’d be easy?
if it was easy, everybody’d do it too
don’t be the fool & certainly
don’t give up
don’t let me steal this moment from you
now get through the messy muck
and find relief, in faithful peace
grasping’s release
but in ignorance, more so
tell me that you won’t let go
The Halfwit Writer 