Affirmations – The Halfwit Writer

A Message from the Tarot:

November 23, 2021 ~ The Tarot of the Divine

Nine of Swords

Ouch. Nine of Swords reveals that we may have heeded toxic advice in the past that has brought about a negative consequence. (Where can we see that in the world? 🙄) This has resulted in you punishing yourself. Why did I do that? Why did I listen to that person? Why didn’t I do this instead?

Clarity may be absolutely absent as we relent to cruel questioning of ourselves, our desires, our decisions. We may be filled with regret or a yearning for a different outcome. Your mind feels as foggy as the air in the image of this card. Dark, dank mist swirls around the oracle as she reveals her chilling prophecy.

From this place of doubt comes further indecisiveness. You may feel drawn to two or more different perspectives, choices, or viewpoints. You may be beating yourself for making the “wrong” decision in the past and you’re worried about making another “wrong” decision in the future.

The Tarot of the Divine reveals the legend of Oedipus in the Nine of Swords. In particular, the moment that the king finds out that his son, Oedipus, will one day kill him. In learning this information, the king is tormented and separates himself from his son in hatred. Instead of raising his son with love to prevent such an action, his fear (and resulting actions) creates the truth of the prophecy.

You may feel stricken with anxiety, terror, nightmares, obsession or even sleeplessness. The energy of the world mirrors your internal condition as we continue to bring our greatest fears into reality. Great disease, tragedy, controlling measures, loss of freedoms, and environmental destruction cover our planet. Our fear and anxiety causes us to withdraw, wishing for a different outcome, but only performing actions that increase the damage.

Stop. Breathe. Recovery is possible with acceptance and letting go of our uncontrolled desire for things to be different than they are. With patient acceptance, we can change our fate this moment forward. We can release our fears that the future will be the same as the past – if only we can learn in this moment. Breathe. Be sure, when the time to make the decision has come, you choose out of love and wisdom and never out of fear and hatred.

Journal Questions:

What do you currently regret? What’s replaying in your mind? What do you wish was different? What are you afraid of? What are you actively hating? How can you choose love instead?

What choices are you currently faced with? How do you want to feel in the future? What do you want your life to be like? What fears are you going to release? Can you let go of your desire for a particular outcome? Can you see the best case scenario in all options? How can you believe that everything is working out for your highest good? How can you perceive that things are happening for you and not to you?

You can stop feeling like a victim of circumstances, but it does take some emotional and mental energy to get there. There may be more pain as you close the cycle, but you will open your world to endless possibilities when you have the ability to accept yourself as you are.

Affirmation from Tarot: Mirror of the Soul :

I am loved, simply because I am the way I am.
Gerd Ziegler

A (simple) Message from the Oracle:

The Tear

It’s time to let go. Let go of the pain you’ve been holding onto just to relive the preceding experience. Let go of your fear of vulnerability. Just let go.

Let go physically; let go emotionally. Be vulnerable. Soften the ego. Release the sorrow that no longer serves you. Release what’s keeping you stuck in the energy of hurt.

Stop beating yourself up. Stop blaming others. Just feel.

Did you know that even strong emotions last only 90 seconds on average? In reality, a minute and a half can feel like forever. But once you release your pain and suffering, it’s over. It may come in short waves, so it feels like it’s never ending. But it’s only through feeling and acceptance that we can let go and move on.

Let the melody of melancholy run its course, flowing through you. Resist drowning in the murky drama of story-making. Don’t let the narrative override the feeling. Quiet your mind, feel, cry and let go.

Tarot: Tarot of the Divine by Yoshi Yoshitani
Oracle: The Wild Unknown Archetypes by Kim Krans

To my changing self,

I am a spectacular person. I love myself inside and out. I love myself unconditionally. I love all my excellent qualities, good qualities and poor qualities. I love that I have poor qualities because my suffering gives me the opportunity to empathize with others, develop compassion, and wish to become a better person. I love my good qualities because they feel natural, I can strengthen them and improve their power. I love my excellent qualities because they allow me to serve living beings, shine a positive light in the darkness, and be an example, or leader, to others.

In all ways I strive to be virtuous: kind, compassionate, free from misery, wise, patient and understanding. Now, there is not a day that goes by where I do not do something wonderful for my higher self and for others. Once there was a time I lived in the dark. My only friends were loneliness and despair; I believed good was not possible, all was lost. I had not the will nor wisdom to make intentional efforts to consciously design and build my future. I did not understand cause and effect, karma. I have suffered at the hands of my self-cherishing mind (ego/pain-body). I have made bad choices.

Still, with faith I have lost all despair. Even when things are difficult, even when I lose control, even when I am hanging by a thread, there arises a resilient mind of faith that I can and will keep going, and I can and will be better.

This letter is to affirm that in the process of becoming better, I love myself as I am. For keeping this desire in my heart and never giving up means that I have already achieved my wishes and dreams, even as I work to achieve them. There is nothing I cannot do.

Love, my wisdom self

Feel free to adapt this letter for your self, for your own expression of love to the beautiful soul inside, the soul struggling to get through the shit. It deserves your unconditional love. It deserves your support, your compassion and your striving for permanent happiness and liberation from suffering.