absurdity – The Halfwit Writer

A note from the caterpillar

The caterpillar is nice to visit
            … in a way

He smokes his pipe
and blows his opinions
               in your face
     whether or not you’ve asked for it

But how much more you enjoy Alice
    pretty and naive, a human even
    quiet and observant, stupid even

                    (What would it be like?)

The girl and ‘pillar
     both approach the end of a cycle    transitioning, evolving
     but one appears an ugly ascension
     better left ignored
   the other’s gracelessness is hidden
           within, ignored

I am not Alice, a girl

secretive or demanding
wishing for non-blond understanding
I have never been lured
by a white rabbit or a rabbit hole
afternoon naps are not really my thing
and I’m awakening from my daydreams

I am the caterpillar
         before it’s eaten by the bird
never to say a butterfly word or whisper
no kisses, no gratuity, no drinks
only brief passers pausing
for wisdom, absurd
or for entertainment to enlightenment
as I age to a disgraceful degree, resisting
before acknowledging

I’ll never fly

    I’ll never be seen as

                Alice

the caterpillar says goodbye

learning disability

I refuse to learn

how options appear
and reappear

to be watched
to be played, as they say
as it’s called
as it’s a toy, a game

we buy into, pressing
play, a button, into
plastic, cold and hard into
flesh and piercing mind

reflex, concerto into messiness
miserly caution, mimics, perfects
fake British accent, dying intellect
started to make sense, now derelict

started to take care, yet now neglect
began to change, but now nonsense
imitation meat – for vegans, eggless
but frozen semen – ah, I digress

an eagle’s search, a patriot’s shame
poorly timed speech or heart’s first flame
dying breath meets empty fame

a speech like this
     a poem in rhythm
          a face uncovered
     past life, disgraced

pointless in theme,
     its cadence poor
          rhyme lacks importance
     its topic, a bore

lost life, discovered
     meaningless, in vain
          still I cannot help but hope
they make me solid –
          exist me in name

press play, the button
enter the future shop
click submit when prompted
and buckle up