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Poetry

Frankenstein

Was I truly a monster?

Having to beg for love crumbs
is ugly

I am not a villain anymore
I don’t steal scraps

And I don’t blame you

For reanimating my heart

When I lay as a corpse on the table

My virgin lips begging for it

Stitched to a rotting head

Jolted to life by your lightning touch

Addicted, attached to your light

Poisoned, angry when left in the dark

The literature you wrote warned others

Stay away from the beast
Science went wrong with this one

So alone I wait
for my doctor to return
with a cure

Not knowing
he got lost along the way

Following lamp light into the marsh
and voices into the mist:

Don’t go home. Play with us.

Is your happiness a monster?
Did you find your truth?

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Poetry

The Only Constant

Different times of day yield
different colours,

Different satisfactions of experience,
clocked shadows, dancing
patches of sun

Yet your embrace
erased such time
coloured everything bright

And our discoveries seemed to
pass us by in a now faded flash

Though the memories
cling like stickseed

Only a dull heat lingers in my womb
creator of gross images,
art and stories, sometimes still of us

All while my subtle winds
carry mournful breaths, poisoned
with attachment

All while my very subtle mind
offers peaceful release, renunciation
accepted, finally

I let you go


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Poetry

Dog Man Grew Up With Cats

The dog boy grew up with cats
they told him he was a cat
spoke to him like a cat
groomed him as a cat
and even though he still became
Dog Man
this pack creature
is unceasingly drawn to felines
their foreplay familiar 
dogs something foreign and rarely
brought round for fun

Dog Man is sensitive and he longs
for a good belly rub
but kitties have dirty claws 
and would rather receive
their own scratch behind the ears
the pissing in a box thing?
not so clean – an illusion
but one puss in the box
is worth two dogs in the woods
so is spoken
so Dog Man clings
like a kitten to the curtains

Dog Man clings
and he won’t run with wolves
he barks with fear 
and he can’t let go

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Poetry Thirsty Thursday

Thirsty Thursday | Who Will Love Me?

Who will love me?

When I am apart from this world

When I stand alone, refusing to be
wrecked by a cellphone superglued to my senses,
application addiction gone awry

When I refuse to partake in modern convention
preferring soft and spiky summer grass between my toes,
humidity sucking sweat to the surface of my skin,
lying upon rocks under thick air,
thick branches bearing bright green canopies,
thousands of thirsty leaves, some yellow and release
reminders that this moment is temporary,
and the Fall will come

Who will love me then?

When I bake appled pies and over-romanticize
the long shadows of autumned evening walks
my season of spiders, ripping through webs
strung out over trails,
boasting my bravery – no more fear of fine-legged friends
just as precious a life, so I give love
I give compassion, knowing these virtues are
given not taken, the cause of the effect,
happiness

Why, then, do I ask for love?

Believing the grasping, the craving
its fulfilment will make me whole, and I
will never want again –
a lie
like salt water quenching thirst
impossible
and possibility
still believed

Who will love me when I am
under a spell of such insanity?

And who will guide me out of this suffering?
Permanently?

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Poetry

Escape

She gets dressed up
Somewhere nice to go
Maybe she’ll meet someone
And be happy for a moment or so

Still, she remembers
Death looms ever close
She’ll lose this appearance forever
And reckon what karma throws

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Firescape Fridays Poetry

I, (a) Robot (Slave) | FF 10

we are slaves to the robots
to the AI
and the algorithms

You’ll like it
We promise

false flags and invisible borders
keep us safe
while debt keeps us slave
and buy me don’t why me
cancels out the mind of disagreement

You’re content, consented already
Your enslavement hasn’t just begun
You opted in a while ago
Didn’t you read the terms?

we are slaves to the robots
who owns them?

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Love Letters Poetry Thirsty Thursday

Homesick | Letter 6

[The Letter Your Ex is Never Going to Send]


Though recently I cursed your name
Your scent, your breath, a stink, a stain
Your touch, your feel, a pin, a prick
Yet in my mind, you stay, you stick

You’re fastened here, you linger near
As if you’re tacked, taped, adhered
Permanently welded there inside my head
Yet rarely now I wish you harm or dead

You simply appear as though invited for tea
It just happens quite naturally
And then I think…I want to come home
No matter that I’d longed to roam

I’d yearned to uproot myself to find
A freedom I could never buy
I’d have to fight and from that I’d shied
For my courage has not your span, nor stride

When I was lost, I saw your face
It ‘peared before my resting place
Before I netflixed, before I chilled
I’d see you there, and my heart stilled

But you’d dissolve with phantom grace
Leaving me grasping at empty space
Thinking, lingering nostalgic syndrome
Please, my love, can I come home?

I wish I did well on my own
When lonesome time and tears have shown
I simply do not enjoy hollow life
Knowing I gave up love, compassion, kindness, a wife

Someone, I thought, is all I need
To walk the forest trails with me
Perhaps keep me warm on winter’s night
Whom I can pleasure and give delight

Now the nights are long and cold
And though I’m young, I’m feeling old
I’m feeling lost, can I come home?
I don’t like life in monochrome

I miss your colour, I miss your zest
You weren’t unstable, you’re simply best
To think I’d thought you like the rest
To think I’d sabotaged your jest

Now when life is cold and grey
Like on this rainy winter’s day
My mind takes me for that trip
That makes me miss your leadership

I know I should seek happiness and peace
Plan my life, find new love, sign the lease
Still though I dream of travel, Paris, Rome
Mostly, I wish I could come home

Love,
A Dumb Fuck


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Love Letters Thirsty Thursday

Solipsist | Letter 5

To My Muse,

A figment of my diabolical imagination. Silly lustful yearning, for you, a character from a fantasy novel I have written. You’re just the right amount of work, and we are ever unwittingly competitive. Keeps things exciting for an airy mind. Don’t you agree?

Of course, every dialogue we’ve held, every discourse exchanged has been in my mind. I try to throw you into my material world, but you don’t hold fast. I watch you release yourself time and again. So I have become addicted to the yearning for you, my muse, more than friend, almost lover, pedestalled perfection. Unconquerable, you stole my heart.

You are no strawman, and I cannot set you alight. You burn with your own passion and you spark something within me. I press on, inspired by my muse, yearning to show you what you’ve never before seen in this lifetime.

In quiet moments, when we can visit, I set us in the most unromantic places, so that a stolen glance is worth more than gold and the brush of an arm is too much. That touch, a subtle message for skin, instructs to flush. Grasping at flesh beneath clothes is knotty and taking too long. I worry the forbidden entanglement be discovered.

Out of this reverie, I am bound to chair and desk only by my own resolve to commit a fictitious tale to tablet, entertaining who it may. Spurred on like my muse’s mare, pressed with gentle kicks, cropped with supple whip, and treated with ultimate kindness though used at his whim.

My heart stolen, when you pressed yourself upon my chest. Your bosom lay where no man’s did, and so you have taken it, locked it away, like chastity, rare and precious.

I feel as though I watch you from behind a thick tapestry. Perhaps one revealing the fairytale of us, the almost ever afters, spiraling toward oblivion, time immaterial.

I whisper, I’m going to make one of those shifty eye paintings, and you shall be my star.

You lean over me once more, whispering your muse-like song:
I shall take your mind to moorelands far away. I shall dance you through the night and day. Joy and fun and boundless love and romance between us, this is where I long to stay.

And then, once more, you fade away.

My muse has gone away.

Just for now,
Adieu

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Playlist Poetry Saturday Expressions

Lavender Blue | Session 7

Lavender Blue:
A Poem in 30 Songs

Runtime: 1hr 41min

this one’s
for that
Time of the Season
when I get sad, a
Season Suite: Late Winter, Early Spring
singing I’m
Lavender Blue (Dilly Dilly)
sometimes feeling silly (silly)

You Are My Sunshine
at the time of year when sunshine is rare

I hum
Kiss the Girl – From “The Little Mermaid”
and
A Charlie Brown Thanksgiving
drinking
Scotch and Soda
watching the
Early Morning Rain
it never gets that cold ‘round here
just so very (very) grey

I met a
Wayfaring Stranger
on a
Saturday Night at the Movies
before saying 
Adieu
he asked
Is That All There Is?

I still see the
Colours
of his
Morning Nightcap
hear his morning
Bird Song
smell
The Wild Mountain Thyme
outside his door
feel the
Boots of Spanish Leather
a gift, before the dance
The Lovers’ Waltz Duet
and
8 Humoresques, Opus 101
[whispering in a foreign tongue]
Poco lento e grazioso

now, I see
The Gathering of Spirits
when I go
Down to the River to Pray
hearing
Tennessee Waltz
in my mind, asking

Where Have All the Average People Gone?
where has he gone?

though I
Keep on the Sunny Side
I think
I’ll Fly Away
Across the Great Divide

to find
The Yellow Rose of Texas

I Love 
Anyone Who Knows What Love Is

and still
No Other Love
will do 

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Playlist Poetry Saturday Expressions

Take a Gamble | Session 6

Take a Gamble:
A Poem in 21 Songs

Runtime: 1hr 18min

Lucky Day
let’s play

Truth
or
DARE

I took you for
The Gambler

if you can
Jump into the Fire
we’ll pretend

I Feel Lucky
so
Dare Me

Ain’t it funny
in my
Impossible Dream 
I’ll be asking
How D’ya Like Your Eggs in the Morning?
and you sing your reply 
Yes, We have no Bananas

All Your Yeahs
with
Burning Love

inspire
Enlightenment

but

The Truth 
is
You Can’t Always Get What You Want

un
Lucky

It’s a Sin
to 
Pass Me By

why not
Pawn it All
instead?

you’re still gamblin’
Lucky You
I bet.