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Love Your Narcissist

by K. Samways, 2020

Anyone who has suffered
at the hands of 
a narcissist
will understand
its great benefits

Let me tell you
about the
kindest boss
I had
so many insecurities
had she
that easy to manipulate
was she
only she also would
Manipulate me

oh the game of the 
narcissist
round and round
whisper whimper
hit the ground
She fed me lies and half-
truths, yes, but
also gave me
special public
opportunities
I’d be her plus one,
her pet
I looked good back then and
the leash was invisible,
You see

oh the game of the 
narcissist
round and round
chains and whips
hit the ground

So it was my eye not hers
that caught some others
wooing community 
members and benefactors
secret attendance
wallflower at times
but there, by her kindness
as her shadow
by her side
How dark and cold it was

oh the game of the
narcissist
round and round
ice trays crack cubes
hit the ground

Her kindness granted me
so much special aspect
special responsibility
not more than I could bear
but by then I 
did not know
up from down
what could I bear?
it all seemed too much
So she gave me more

oh the game of the 
narcissist 
round and round
kindness smothers
hit the ground

I’d go into work and drag
my feet until someone
came in and my pert
presence in 
reception was 
the only light
to cut the tension in
the office
a palpable, tangible plight
She plunged with us

oh the game of the 
narcissist 
round and round
wearing grinding
hit the ground

Here’s another opportunity
public events committee
the ultimate opportunity 
to display woman empowering 
woman in public spaces
closed door meetings aside
She pushed me towards
a brighter future – again –
how kind! Although I admit
She could work on the delivery

oh the game of the
narcissist
round and round
push and pull
hit the ground

But back in office
worse than before
ensuring I’d quit maybe
make a scene something more
pushing prodding
poking digging
although the ignoring 
was even worse – that’s how
they broke prisoners,
You know

oh the game of the
narcissist
round and round
lean in for kill
hit the ground

So right before she could
revoke the niceties
she tried to lend 
to me
I snatched them 
for keeps
and ran as far as I could go
not that far, it seems
our circles rubbing 
Edges still

oh the game of the
narcissist
round and round
try to escape but
hit the ground

Okay I’m still not 
entirely grateful 
she told some she fired me
when I would have preferred
they heard tales of 
my bravery in 
facing the beast
feeling fire’s breath
and walking away head held high
And by choice

oh the game of the
narcissist
round and round
liar liar
hit the ground

Yet once more
to appreciate
the actions of before
the kind cruelty
she bestowed
truly empowering and emboldening
and my compassion ever
growing for beings
like her
For their need is greatest

oh the game of the
narcissist
round and round
eventually they
hit the ground

Anyone who has suffered
at the hands of 
a narcissist
should understand
its great benefits